Letting go....

God has been making his voice loud and clear to me lately. And the message is.

LET IT ALL GO!

If you know me, you know I like to be in control. I like things planned and like everything to go as planned and run smoothly.

I HATE change. I just hate it. Even good change stresses me out.

But right now in my life is a season for change. Good change I think (hope)

I have been working 10 hours a week since Sept. I was hating every minute of it. It's been hard. My heart is at home with my babies. But lately while I've been there I felt a change start to shift. I absolutely hate leaving my children but once I'm there I feel like I'm making a difference and really shining. Hard to explain.

Anyways so BAM! Outta the blew last Friday I get a text offering me a weekend job! It's an admission/marketing position. Sat and Sun!

I of course was like heck no! I don't wanna double my hours but then it just made since. Dustin would be with our babies, they wouldn't be with sitters twice a week. I would still be able to go to church with them. The pay and perks are gonna be N I C E

We prayed about for a day and night and I accepted the job. That day I mourned my old life that I knew and loved and longed for.  Everyday with my kids. Nothing but playdates and freedom! Family weekends.

That's when I saw this quote...

So tomorrow I start this new life. I've been praying praying and praying and God just keeps telling me to let it all go. He's got a plan for my life that is better than the one I had planned.

The song above has come on almost every time I get in my car. And it pretty much sums up my feelings so perfectly.

Dustin put in his two weeks at his job that he's been at for I think about 6 years now. It was hard on him. He has great relationships with everyone there and is leaving on fabulous terms. He has accepted a job that is completely out of his comfort zone, and will be learning this new career from scratch. But I think he will flourish in this new role and will end up loving it and being blessed by it.

But never the less it's scary stuff! He got offered the job yesterday and the pay was about $3 an hour less than what we were expecting. I flood of panic started to wash over me. Are we making a mistake? Is this a sign? Should he back out of it now and stay at his current job?

I had to really check myself and just stop and pray.

But again God shows me through his word:

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11

And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.         Romans 8:28

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.         Philippians 4:6

We believe this our the path God has laid out for our lives right now. And we are taking that step of faith and trusting God will continue to provide for us and our children.

I am moved by Gods provision, mercy, love, grace, and patience with me. I am letting it go to Him!





1/3

YAY! I am officially 1/3 of the way done with my 30 day challenge! I moved up to level 2, 3 days early and wish I hadn't because it kills me.

I seriously end every workout huffing and puffing for air and sweat pouring down my face. I guess that's the point right?

I wanted to give you guys an updated pic I've only lost 1 lb but I really feel like my body is changing and inches are shrinking in.

I don't know if you'll be able to see any difference but I do! I just feel smaller!

So here is a side by side from day 1 to day 10

DAY 1

DAY 10

Embrace the Camera today and every Thur!

WEEK 1 down, 3 to go

Week 1 is done and over with and I can happily report I've lost

1 pound! Whoop Whoop!

So here is my week in review.

I did great with my checklist!

Every day I met all my goals and only cheated one time. And that was on Sat. after the kids got amazing goodie bags from their friend Emmy's bday party. I tried all night and finally rewarded myself with a funsize snickers.

Although it tasted fabulous I have to admit I wish I hadn't eaten it. But hey I'm human and weak sometimes. But other than that lil mistake all has been going well.

I'm drinking water like it's my job

This is my little water bottle that now goes everywhere with me. I drink at least 3 of these a day. Which is 9 cups!

At the start of this I gave myself 2 days grace each week to not do the shred. Well I worked out 6 days for this first week and also ran 2.75 miles on sat.

I did decide to take Sunday off, mostly because my wonderful hubby let me sleep in until 830! Well I actually woke up at 8 but sheesh I stayed in bed an extra half hour enjoying the silence and feeling of not having to get anyone anything.

After I finally rolled outta bed he made sure the kids were all ready to go to church and he brought me a cup of coffee and kept the kids outta the room so I could get ready in peace. It was amazing!

I think he forgot I was trying to lose weight cause he surprised me by stopping for donuts! So I got a maple bar and ate half :) I really wanted a chocolate one but didn't wanna cheat again.

So today was Day 7 (since I took Sunday off) and both the kids worked out with me today. They have been alternating working out with me.

Both have interesting choices for work out attire.

Blake one day wore his roller skates!

But they are both so adorable and encouraging and inspiring I mean if Bella can do it in heals than come on mama!

I was originally gonna wait until day 10 to bump up to level 2 but I think I'm ready tomorrow

I'm not gasping for air anymore on level 1! hahah

So cheers my water bottle to another week of SHRED!





I choose Success

 

 

I am a girl who loves organization, checklists, and goals!

I am a visual person. I need to see what needs to be done and be able to check it off!

So I made myself a daily checklist for my little challenge here..

1. Do Shred it!
2. Drink 2 Liters of water
3. No Soda
4. No chocolate/candy
5. No fast food
6. No Alcohol
7. Take Vitamin

I am going to take on this goal 1 day at a time. I have Shred it and Shred it with weights so for month 1 I'm only doing Shred it. It has 3 levels so simply math I will be doing each level 10 times then move on to the next.

Then month two I will take on Shred it with weights.

For this month as you can see by my checklist I have decided to try my darnedest to cut up soda, fast food, chocolate, and alcohol.

I am also trying to eat 5 small meals a day verses 3 large ones. I'm gunna kick my metabolism in the booty!

I wanna see results and that takes sacrifice and focus.

Day 3 is done and I'm feeling sore but good. Last night was hard I think just from not having a soda during the day my body wasn't used to the lack of caffeine so I got a bit of a headache but feeling good today.

I choose Success!

 

EPIC FAILURE

Well......many of you have been asking me how my 60 day Shred it challenge is going.
Today would be day 60!
Except it's not, it's day 2 :(
I was doing fairly well I think 8 days straight and then bam! No motivation, no energy, no desire to get fit! I would do a day here a day there. Nothing special. I decided I needed to stop and refocus then when I new I was good and ready and determined start my challenge AGAIN!

My original goal is pretty much the same, but I am going to give myself weekends (or any 2 days) off per week. I might take those days. I might not!

So sadly due to my 2 month flop, I've actually gained weight. I'm now 134 pounds. I am determined to....

get my abs flat

arms defined

endurance up

weight down

posture improved

Wish me luck as I take on this goal once more!